Finding Motivation

So lately, I've been in more than just a funk. I've been depressed. And it really hit me hard. It's lasted for a bit over a month now. And I know I should be better. I should've been able to get out of this since I've been depressed before and knew what this felt like. But before I had medication. I don't want medication to get me out of this. I didn't like how it made me feel when I was on the medication. So without the medication, I'm thinking working out and trying to get myself out of this depression may work.

With that said, I don't feel the motivation to do so. It's a cycle. I don't want to feel like this, which should be motivation, but I'm not motivated since I'm depressed. I found my favorite Beachbody workout routines (aka Combat!!!); I picked it since I loved how it made me feel when I did it. It made me feel like a bad ass after a workout! And since I know I love weightlifting and building my booty, I found a lifting routine. I added in extra lower body workouts to build me booty since it was getting pretty fantastic lol.

I need to get back to doing meal prep. I haven't done it in a looooooong while but it needs to happen. I'm going to give the crock pot an actual chance. It's been sitting in the trunk of my car for the last month and a half or so. It was suggested by one of the trainers as a different way to do my chicken and things. I usually just Foreman Grill things and just call it done lol. Hopefully it'll go well. I'm not great at cooking so I'm all prayers on that front.

The only thing I seem to be excited for lately is my makeup. I've loved every thing I've tried so far. Obviously, I still love the mascara; it's the thing that got me hooked into the company and the rest of the products they have to offer. I'm really enjoying the BB Flawless Cream, especially paired with the Glorious Face & Eye Primer. It's been really great at not only giving me some light coverage but really great at giving me extra moisture. I can't get enough of it!!! It makes me feel a bit more comfortable wearing makeup when I've been really self-conscious of my psoriasis on my face. When I wear powders and other liquid foundations and such, I still feel dry and my face still looks a bit flakey thanks to my skin condition. I will even prep my face with moisturizer and primer but still with not a lot of luck. The primer feels silky and not oily and I feel like it "calms" my skin. I really really REALLY can't say I love these products enough. It's been such a long hunt to find something I love on my skin with my psoriasis.

I'm thinking of getting the concealer next since I am a bit red in some spots. And from what I've seen from the product videos and pictures regarding our concealer, it will be amazing!!! And lately, I've also gotten to play with the makeup a bit more and have been trying to master the contour and highlighting thing. I was never one to really try it so it might take some getting use to. I've also heard of strobing and I know that's something to try. It might go a lot better for me than the contouring and highlighting lol.

I'm still trying to get more comfortable in front of the camera, talking lol. I need more eye contact in videos. And I must stop over thinking things. I'm trying to get more tips and tricks and get out of my comfort zone and meet people and network.

Also, will get my measurements as soon as I can. I can't see where I'm going if I don't know where I've been, right? You can follow me on Instagram or MyFitnessPal (DaniJ715 for both) to see my journey in pictures and calories lol

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