It's never too late to become what you might have been

Hello again! It's been a while since I've been on here. Mainly because of life's ups and downs. I've been feeling really low about myself and decided I needed to change. Hopefully it takes, or more like hopefully I'm ready to sustain change. What's changed for me? I'm at a professional part in my life where I've been feeling stagnant and want more or change or both. And personally, I got to the point where I got too comfortable and just stopped focusing on my health goals/gains cause my partner was okay with me the way I was/am. Which, I know, is super awesome and fortunate but I didn't like the run down and weighed down feeling I had when literally and figuratively. So, for the last few months, I've been doing a dietbet, which I'm not great at. I feel like I always get close to my goal but never get there, which would've made me feel down in the past. But now, I just take it and move onto the next month and hope I make it then. Alo...

Well day one of Cize is in the bag!  If cardio is like that most days, then I shouldn't dread it lol. And, as expected, I felt ridiculous and uncoordinated and totally uncool. But as I was going, and with repetition, it felt slightly less ridiculous. And, actually, when it was all over, I wanted to Cize it up even more. I still find myself tripping up on some moves but it's still cool. Hopefully I'll fit in some Cize tomorrow morning before my long day begins. And, hopefully, I'll be less awkward. Maybe if I'm not as sore tomorrow, I'll be better off with getting a move on. Yesterday's 21 Day Fix really has me super sore. I almost didn't workout today, I was that sore, but I'm super happy I did. My eating wasn't so bad today. I need to eat more and drink more water but other than that, not too bad. I need to try and remember my food guidelines. I know I need to cut out the carbs from grains and such for this "diet." And, we'll see...

So, I should be a week into my Cize program. Unfortunately, that isn't the case. I haven't done a workout. But at least work keeps me moving? And I'm still trying to get my sleep schedule balanced with my work schedule. It hasn't been going so well, sleeping in general. I don't really sleep. So I'm focusing on that this week. I picked up some melatonin to get me into some sort of schedule. Or if not a schedule, at least get more sleep than 3 hours or sleep continuously. My diet hasn't been fairing much better either. I don't eat. Or when I do it, it's not well. I use my meals to kind of fuel my body for the long period that it'll go without food. I know I should be eating more and better. And I try. I bring snacks and eat those. But usually not until my day has ended and I should've had a meal instead of snacks. My meal times usually are as follows: breakfast at 4, 5am. Then I'm put on break for my lunch around 8, 9am. It's usually ...

So, as promised, I did some measurements. Sadly, I'm up in my numbers but surprisingly, not as badly as I thought. Still, not happy that I'm up again. Anyways, here are some starting numbers before I officially start Shaun T's Cize tomorrow!!! Starting weight: 120.0 lbs Chest: 36 in Waist: 32 in Hips: 35.75 in Thigh (L/R): 21.25 in/21.75 in I can't wait to start. I finally got my streaming situation sorted so I don't have to wait for the physical DVDs, which according to FedEx, are due in on the 23rd. I've watched a bit of every dance routine and they all look like so much fun. I didn't do the meal prep I wanted to do today but there is always tomorrow. I know I want to hard boil eggs to keep around as snacks. I know I need to cut out a lot of bad processed carbohydrates. I need more veggies, which I bought. I want more fruit though. I want something to curb my need for sweets and fruit usually does it. I'm going to try the 10 Week Body Challen...

So in December, I had every intention of being better, but it hasn't been going exactly as planned. It's actually been kinda bad. I've been a bit derailed. Maybe it was the holidays. Maybe it’s because I’ve been a little bit down and depressed. Maybe it was the weather of the season. Maybe it was and is all the working I've been doing. Actually, now that I think about it, it's all of the above on top and being in school this semester that’s in my way. My workouts have been sporadic. Work has me drained more than usual. And being anemic and having poor nutrition as of late hasn't helped either. I don’t sleep as much because I work too much. One job has me up at 3 a.m. And the other job, when I work, has me up till like 11 p.m. If I schedule my workouts before work, then I’ll be up at like 2 a.m. I need to find a balance and change. So to kind of start to change off things, I took on a trainer. It was going alright I suppose until like last month. I starte...

I'm sure I'm in good company when I say I've been in holiday mode. I've been over working, eating poorly, and have been inconsistent in my workout. So I'm starting anew. I'm going back to my Beachbody program that I loved so much (Combat) to go with my weights (I love to lift now). With starting again, I need measurements and pictures, which I'll post again. It's sadly gone up I suspect since the last time I posted. My main goal is to have less inches. I've learned that I don't care about the scale. I care about the inches and how my clothes fit. I'm still in my size 1/3. My 0 is getting too tight. It's funny when I write that out, it seems like I've gotten tiny. And yet I still feel huge. I don't know if it's because I've been fat most of my life and I just can't seem to think of or see myself as anything but. Maybe that'll change sometime with the next few weeks as I go through my Beachbody challenge. I...