Starting All Over Again
I'm sure I'm in good company when I say I've been in holiday mode. I've been over working, eating poorly, and have been inconsistent in my workout. So I'm starting anew. I'm going back to my Beachbody program that I loved so much (Combat) to go with my weights (I love to lift now).
With starting again, I need measurements and pictures, which I'll post again. It's sadly gone up I suspect since the last time I posted. My main goal is to have less inches. I've learned that I don't care about the scale. I care about the inches and how my clothes fit. I'm still in my size 1/3. My 0 is getting too tight. It's funny when I write that out, it seems like I've gotten tiny. And yet I still feel huge. I don't know if it's because I've been fat most of my life and I just can't seem to think of or see myself as anything but. Maybe that'll change sometime with the next few weeks as I go through my Beachbody challenge.
I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of being how I was. I don't want to backslide. I'm still not where I'd like to be, but it's better than where I was. I know it's one day at a time. And I always try to remind myself that I'm better than I was before. I know, with my family's health problems (on both my mother's and father's), getting healthy now will only help me in the future, for whatever I want to do in the future, such as have a family or just have a better quality of life.
I see my mother and her diabetes getting to her. I saw my grandmother have complications associated with diabetes. Women in the family also tends to have a tendency towards cancer. My aunt just passed last week from it. My mother had a hysterectomy when she was fairly young. I joke about how the women in the family tend not to live past 70, but I don't want that. I want to live, like really live and do things I only dreamed about because I was fat.
With starting again, I need measurements and pictures, which I'll post again. It's sadly gone up I suspect since the last time I posted. My main goal is to have less inches. I've learned that I don't care about the scale. I care about the inches and how my clothes fit. I'm still in my size 1/3. My 0 is getting too tight. It's funny when I write that out, it seems like I've gotten tiny. And yet I still feel huge. I don't know if it's because I've been fat most of my life and I just can't seem to think of or see myself as anything but. Maybe that'll change sometime with the next few weeks as I go through my Beachbody challenge.
I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of being how I was. I don't want to backslide. I'm still not where I'd like to be, but it's better than where I was. I know it's one day at a time. And I always try to remind myself that I'm better than I was before. I know, with my family's health problems (on both my mother's and father's), getting healthy now will only help me in the future, for whatever I want to do in the future, such as have a family or just have a better quality of life.
I see my mother and her diabetes getting to her. I saw my grandmother have complications associated with diabetes. Women in the family also tends to have a tendency towards cancer. My aunt just passed last week from it. My mother had a hysterectomy when she was fairly young. I joke about how the women in the family tend not to live past 70, but I don't want that. I want to live, like really live and do things I only dreamed about because I was fat.
I guess to give myself tangible goal, aside from being healthier, I'd love to lose inches - preferably in my thighs and arms and abs. I know it's diet and lately that's been my problem. I don't get to eat as often or as nicely as I'd like. So that'll be a big focus in my challenge. I'll track my food, my portions, and count calories again. I'm on myfitnesspal if you want to be friends (DaniJ715; this is also my name on IG if you want to follow me on there too).
So that's another goal - change my mindset. Don't see myself as I was, but see myself as I am and how I want to be. And also, don't let the little things such as a bad day get to me.
And another physical change goal that I've been trying to get to is that sexy back. I want a killer back. I know I can do the legs and the booty, but I want a great upper body and the strength to go with it.
Also, something that you'd think I'd be better at, I want to be more conscious of my water intake. As of late, I've been bad. I don't drink near enough. I downloaded an app just to help with it. Hopefully that helps.
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